ETA: Logged out and gone to sleep. Good night, all!
I'm going to be trying to figure out what city I should be setting my urban fantasy in. (Or at least, what it should be an analogue to, geography-wise.)
I'll be on Discord for a couple of hours, if anyone wants to join me: https://discord.gg/w9PK3Yg
(This time I'll remember to edit the post to say when I log off Discord!)
...this is a weird, weird thought for me.
I blame the Guardians of the Galaxy sequel--found family and xenobiology are already sources of great temptation for me, and then they added abusive family dynamics that sounded just about right and
sisters who are trying to cope with a legacy of a shitty, shitty parenting and bad communication caused in part by trying to deal with that, and they gave me Nebula
to play with, and I just want to read all of the fic with those sisters dealing with each other.
It doesn't exist, so I guess I might have to write it. And, well, there's a Kragdu discord going that's supportive enough, I guess, and my partner is egging me on the whole time, so maybe I can do that thing. I have not yet found what I really want, which is a Guardians of the Galaxy comm modeled after Star Trek's excellent where_no_woman
That being said, I Don't Write Fiction. I can write, sure, but I've never written fiction seriously--it's scary, and I get intimidated, and I feel like Not A Real Fan, and mostly I just want to bury my head in the sand and hide until all the fiction goes away. Bleh.
And I'm really tired because I'm trying to do all the things at once, which is about usual for me. But. Practice makes perfect, I guess?
Thing I do not understand about what people take away from Wonder Woman: "Zeus and Ares considering Diana to be Zeus's daughter"="Diana was not sculpted from clay by Hippolyta." It's like, they assume that the whole "sculpting from clay" thing was just a lie to get away with "where the heck did you get sperm on an island with no men."
I mean, the Greek gods were "born" and came to life in all kinds of weird and wacky ways. Athena, for example! Athena was Zeus' daughter with Metis (and very similar to Diana of Themyscira, in a lot of ways). How was Athena born? She sprang fully formed from Zeus's head! He was still her father and Metis her mother. A bunch of Zeus's other children were at least sometimes considered to have been born through means other than sexual reproduction. (Ares' mom may have gotten pregnant with him by eating the wrong lettuce leaf at the wrong time. Ares was still considered a child of Zeus.) The Greek gods just kind of went with the flow. The people involved in your creation (whether through sex or not) were your parents.
What I'm trying to say is, everything we are told in the movie could easily be true all at the same time: Hippolyta wants a daughter so she sculpted one out of clay and prayed to Zeus. Zeus wants a god-killer to take out Ares, and so he obliged her by flinging a lightning bolt her way or whatever, and bringing the baby to life. The Amazons know this, but what is most important to them? This is their Queen's daughter, their princess, the only child on the island, their Diana who was sculpted out of clay by her mother. What is most important to Ares? That Diana was brought to life by Zeus and is thus his daughter, and therefore Ares' sister, whether or not her birth fits into the standard "mommy and daddy have sex and nine months later a child is born" model that is the only way humans reproduce. Ares and Diana are not humans. They are Greek god and demigod. Ares, in particular, scorns humans, so why would he care about human definitions of parenthood and sibilinghood? Especially when he's trying to get Diana onside. "Come join the family" is a lot more compelling than "come join the dude you've been taught to hate all your life for all the horrible things he's done."
As for Diana? How does she consider herself? What is most important to her? That she is Hippolyta's daughter, sculpted from clay. Yes, she was brought to life by Zeus. Yes, that means that in the way the Greek gods thought, Zeus was her father. She acknowledges this tie. That means Ares is her brother. But I bet you that when you ask her how she was born, five minutes heart-to-heart with Ares on a battlefield doesn't overturn the fact that she is an Amazon and thinks like one. And therefore, unless you are specifically considering her role as god-killer, the fact that Hippolyta sculpted her from clay is far more important than Zeus's contribution.
Look at the battle between her and Ares. She doesn't really ... react much when Ares starts calling her his sister. She doesn't look, talk, or act like a person having a major identity crisis. She's just like, "okay, you want to call me sister, sure, fine, whatever, guess that fits too, let's get on with this." She doesn't react like "OMG, my mom LIED to me, everything I know about myself is a lie!" It's more in line with "oh, right, yeah, from your POV Zeus's contribution is the most important, whatever."
The best part of the Doctor Who casting announcement is that it opens up EVEN MORE amazing possibilities for horrifyingly beautiful St. Trinian's crossovers.
"Oh, Beverly!" called Miss Fritton from her office, leaning over and waving one hand. Beverly could see one her out of the corner of one eye.
"What's that little knobbly thingummy you're pointing at the door?"
"It's a sonic screwdriver, miss!"
"What's it for?"
"Nothing, miss!" There was Dalek invasion and the First Years were busy lobbing explosives from the tower while Beverly - the Doctor, really, but she'd been undercover for years and thought of herself as Beverly still - remodulated the alarm system to broadcast a frequency that would short-circuit their disruptor beams. The Daleks, not the First Years.
Though Beverly privately thought the First Years infinitely more dangerous to let loose upon the human race than the Daleks, but she did have standards after all, and centuries of enmity with the Daleks to uphold.
"So what you're saying," said Miss Fritton, appearing in her doorway with an empty bottle of vodka in one hand, "is that we're out of vodka and you forgot to stock up, is that it?"
"Get the gin, miss," said Beverly, holding back a sigh.
One of the things we fans love is our Woobbie Heroes, the guys (like Daniel Jackson or Bucky Barnes) who suffer so beautifully. Hurt-comfort, we loves it, precious. (And oh, I am dating myself with those terms.)
Anyway, there are a lot of fics about, say, Bucky recovering from torture, or where his psychological recovery is a large part of the story. And one thing I've noticed is that the treatments for PTSD that people normally use are behind the times. Like, they'll have talk therapy, and maybe a therapy animal or journaling--and these are good and helpful--but there's been a LOT of research into trauma disorders and recovery in the last two decades, and a lot of developments of new treatments. Talk therapy is not the gold standard of what a cutting-edge therapist recommended by Tony Stark would use. It might well be part of the therapy, but not the whole of it. And Sam Wilson, working at the VA, would certainly know this as well. I am not a professional, but I have read enough of the top books on trauma to have some feel for the subject.
If you would like to incorporate some more current research, understandings, and techniques, the best place to start is The Body Keeps the Score
by Bessel van der Kolk. He's got decades of experience and research dealing with combat vets, survivors of childhood abuse of every kind, and every sort of trauma you can imagine. The book is well-written and interesting and suitable for a non-specialist to read, and it covers the history of trauma in psychology and how we learned what we know today, along with some very interesting case studies. Best of all, the last few chapters are overviews of what he's found to be the most effective forms of treatment, including a brief overview of what the treatment is and their best guesses as to why it works, and then some examples of what's happened when he has used it or seen it used. (Also, it's fun how he burns the DSM-V and some of his colleagues. Like, there is SO MUCH SHADE, OH MY GOD.)
If you want some medical jargon to use in your fic, the place to start would be The Body Bears the Burden
by Robert Scaer. Scaer is a neurobiologist, not a psychologist, and boy howdy can you tell in his writing. This one is a little more challenging, but it has a lot of medical stuff if you want to use that in your fic and wikipedia isn't doing it for you.
Wonder Woman Wrap by Carissa Browning
The pattern is free (and color-coded for each section, which is awfully nice), so even if you don't make it, you should either save it to your Ravelry library (if you have one) or download it for future planning purposes JUST IN CASE. It's pretty simple, and should you be looking to learn short rows, this is a good one for that.
It was also translated into French, should you be a native French speaker or wish to practice your French or French-based knitting skills. (I don't believe Ravelry pattern writers turn down translations of their patterns, should you wish to donate your time to spreading the fandom love, but if you are interested, the comments section on the pattern post is here
, and my experience on Ravelry's comments has been generally pleasant.)
Basically, a rotation curation is when there's an account set up for different people to take over. People 'curate' it for a week or so. I was on https://twitter.com/TWkLGBTQ
, which as you can tell is all about the LGBTQ+ community.
It was interesting! The account follows almost 3,000 people, which is very different from my usual account's 700 or so. I ended up spending a lot of time just reading people's feeds, also seeing the same news stories (Andrew Garfield making a joke that backfired, the hot mess with Blac Chyna and Rob Kardashian, people killed in hatecrimes) again and again. That last one was really upsetting.
I also spoke to a larger selection of people than I normally would have - the account follows the LGBT Conservatives account and a few other, similar people. Obviously I don't agree with them, but it was still interesting/infuriating.
Overall, I had a very good experience and would rec it! Have followed a bunch of new to me people too.
I am not copying 2K entries from deprecated software DayOne into DW by hand. Once I started having to change the month in the dropdown it got too tedious.
I exported the entire journal as an HTML file (to preserve photos and formatting) and archived it. If I need something from it I can search it.
In the meantime I will MOVE ON AND FACE FORWARD.
I'm listening to the 1200 years of women composers
playlist on Spotify (it's 78 hours long with lots of really great music, give it a shot). I think my favorite composers are Alice Mary Smith (1839-1884) and Amy Beach (1867-1944). But anyway, as I'm listening to Smith's Symphony in C Minor, I notice several fragments of phrases that sound a lot like the Hobbit themes from The Lord of the Rings. Not an entire melodic line, but a few bars of a phrase that then weave into something different, and then a few minutes later there's another one. Howard Shore obviously knows Smith's work, even if I've never heard of her before. (Why, I don't know, because her work is delightful.)